To the one who always believed in me!
To the one who always loved me for who I am!
To the one who stand by me no matter what in countless times!
To the one who held my hand and walk me trough life!
To the one who listen to my bitching, laughing, crying!
To the one who hugged me when I most need it!
To the one who really, really care for me!
To the one who saved me numerous times from bad people or bad actions!
To the one who snap me out of it!
To the one who make me always smile, when I have a shit day!
To the one who tells me " yes you can!"
To the one who heard so much shit about me!
To the one who told me I am beautiful!
I love you my dearest, truly friend!
I just have no words of saying how much I really love you...
I stand by you even if there is a thousand miles between us at times... I will always be your friend!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
LOVE
So here I am writing blah blah about the most written ever subject- love...
To fall in love it's not easy I must say, as the years role on you, harder it gets to fall in love with some one. How is that really happening? You see this new face for the first time and you fall for it? That would be more attraction, but then you talk, and you laugh and you cry and so much drama and work in this busy life, yet you still have time for each other. You get to know each other, you get to want more and more... Dream about this face that becomes now familiar and you feel you can't without it... It's getting harder, you want to say something but the words come out wrong, or the person front of you mis understand you... You feel like you screwed up somehow yet you are so protective of the person... You start to dream with this person, you make your plans and that person is included in it, you feel closure and you feel you can't just live without it... You share that special little moments of walking down the street and he grabs your hand and leads your path away, sweep your feet away, thinks big...
You starting to see the world with different colors, you find yourself in his face...
Maybe you've been with this person in previously life, maybe this is just a déjà vu, or just maybe... you fall in love...
And it gets harder and harder now, while separated from each other, the minutes feel like hours, and the hours- days... You just want to be together and be happy again.
Then people start talking and commenting bad or good, is all the same to you- you just don't listen, because you can only hear your heart and its telling you only one thing " he is the one!" And you keep on rolling day after day. If you don't hear a word for a day you start worry if something bad happen, it is not simple any more, you infested care in your body for that person and you become one big drama ball rolling off an on in bed day by day until you see that face again... How sweet is to be in love we all seek it and when we find it, it becomes hard and complicated... You can't just go with the flow, or relax, you just wanna build and build upon the new relationship and make it stronger, and forever...
It's hard I know, so do everyone knows it but not everyone admits it... In this hard busy life we still find it though, could be on the street, could be at the store or could be just knocking at your door...
Take that hand that is offered to you I say, and just run away with it... Love, love and love more!
To fall in love it's not easy I must say, as the years role on you, harder it gets to fall in love with some one. How is that really happening? You see this new face for the first time and you fall for it? That would be more attraction, but then you talk, and you laugh and you cry and so much drama and work in this busy life, yet you still have time for each other. You get to know each other, you get to want more and more... Dream about this face that becomes now familiar and you feel you can't without it... It's getting harder, you want to say something but the words come out wrong, or the person front of you mis understand you... You feel like you screwed up somehow yet you are so protective of the person... You start to dream with this person, you make your plans and that person is included in it, you feel closure and you feel you can't just live without it... You share that special little moments of walking down the street and he grabs your hand and leads your path away, sweep your feet away, thinks big...
You starting to see the world with different colors, you find yourself in his face...
Maybe you've been with this person in previously life, maybe this is just a déjà vu, or just maybe... you fall in love...
And it gets harder and harder now, while separated from each other, the minutes feel like hours, and the hours- days... You just want to be together and be happy again.
Then people start talking and commenting bad or good, is all the same to you- you just don't listen, because you can only hear your heart and its telling you only one thing " he is the one!" And you keep on rolling day after day. If you don't hear a word for a day you start worry if something bad happen, it is not simple any more, you infested care in your body for that person and you become one big drama ball rolling off an on in bed day by day until you see that face again... How sweet is to be in love we all seek it and when we find it, it becomes hard and complicated... You can't just go with the flow, or relax, you just wanna build and build upon the new relationship and make it stronger, and forever...
It's hard I know, so do everyone knows it but not everyone admits it... In this hard busy life we still find it though, could be on the street, could be at the store or could be just knocking at your door...
Take that hand that is offered to you I say, and just run away with it... Love, love and love more!
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
HE HAS IT
I walk the busy streets filled with dirt and people. Some are smiling on my looks and some are laughing...
I talk, but no one listens, or hear me some and see the crowd gets less and less...
I love for real some, to discover later I do not exist for them at all...
I cry and still no one listens...
I run and no one keep up with me, no matter how hard or easy it is the run...
I live for others, yet no one really cares yet...
For you I write, who do not read,
To you I talk, who do not listen,
You I love, who do not understand,
YOU, no matter what I'll stand for...
I'll strip my clothes and start walking, trough the hot deserts of emptiness, trough the hot sands, and icy waters of the mountain lakes. I would swim the rivers, and fly over forests. I would look into every face on Earth and seek yours, searching for your soul in the valley of the Ashes. Even thought my feet are bleeding, and I am dying thirsty, I will still walk towards finding you. I know I will see the beauty of the world with pretty colors, music, dancing and the laugh, with the rainbows and the sunny days, with chirping birds and running kids... I would still not stop, but pass by until I enter the cold and dark night. The twilight would kiss softly my wounds.The moon will slowly climb the sky and rise above my naked body. I will drink the small droplets from the blades of the grass as the ground begins to cool, while still walking, before it turns to frost..
I make mistakes of seeing your characteristics in someone else, but I it's not really you, I have to keep going, where are you? Where is you? I fall a lot, sometimes into deep holes, sometimes into swamps, and sometimes into rivers, oceans or the lakes. But I taste all grounds and waters and I see it is not the same. I know I am moving closer... I sometimes see you clear, but closer as I get I see mirage... I can hear your words, so passionate, so sweet and tender, so true and loved, but closer as I get I fear is that really you or the mirage again...
As I walk trough the dark, I use my hands to feel around, I often get hurt more not knowing who is there or what it's gonna be...I fear, but I still go on... I scream out loud your name, can't you hear? No answer on the other end...
And the sun rise again. Kissing me gently, like taking away my worries and I move on. I keep on walking and screaming your name, so many heads turn back, yet I can't see your face....
I keep on moving, and my heart fills with more love and hope, and it gets heavy, you do not understand, it is heavy and hard to keep walking like that.
My eye lids heavy closing slowly, I am dragging my feet trough the dry cracked ground. I stop for a break, to just take a short breath, leaning my back against the gray empty wall... Front of me was just this green construction with small windows but no light, was it anyone living at all there?!
The sun disappeared again and I was hugged back the darkness. I couldn't see anymore, I lost my hearing... I felt so cold and alone in that moment...
I felt warm touch, someone was holding my hand. I open my eyes and it was you there!
"Who are you?" you said...
"I've been looking for you, you I always wanted, you I dreamed of, you by whom I've been always hunted... I am here now, just take me, end my walk of time and all this searching..."
"I am sorry but I do not understand you..."
"It is you, you and only... Can you hear me, can you even understand, I just know inside me, it is really, really you I've always wanted..."
"Please calm down, I am afraid I do not like it..."
"What is wrong with you, are you going mad? I am here, it is me as pure as I can be!"
"I do not care..." And he stands to walk away.
"No, wait! Can't you spare a minute to get to know me who I am? You saw me, but you never known me..."
"I still don't care do you understand! I wish I never stopped and asked you, I changed my mind, I have to go and lay... Take care."
"But I walked so long, so far, I am giving you my heart..." The tears showing in my eyes, my soul is shedding down my spine..."Just give me time, I'll show you and I will tell you about my long adventure..."
"What? Do you think I can spare time? I am busy with important stuff, maybe some other life..."
"Can you just for second, stop and look around. Do you know where are you, do you know with who? Do you know I care and I love you. I know that is not even matter now, but I just want to tell you that and then you can do whatever. Here just take it, I just can't even bare it..." I rip my heart and place it in his feet.
So what it hasn't be towards me so fare, I still said the words I thought of, I still try to show what I feel inside, and I strip naked front of him so he could see me as I was... The fact that I was there meeting him at last...Nothing else even matter, it was him I just wanted to take care... I have no idea what he would do with my beating heart now, would he kick it, would he take it, would he trow it or just spit at it...maybe love it, I so hope for it, but I don't know...
Well now he has it...
I talk, but no one listens, or hear me some and see the crowd gets less and less...
I love for real some, to discover later I do not exist for them at all...
I cry and still no one listens...
I run and no one keep up with me, no matter how hard or easy it is the run...
I live for others, yet no one really cares yet...
For you I write, who do not read,
To you I talk, who do not listen,
You I love, who do not understand,
YOU, no matter what I'll stand for...
I'll strip my clothes and start walking, trough the hot deserts of emptiness, trough the hot sands, and icy waters of the mountain lakes. I would swim the rivers, and fly over forests. I would look into every face on Earth and seek yours, searching for your soul in the valley of the Ashes. Even thought my feet are bleeding, and I am dying thirsty, I will still walk towards finding you. I know I will see the beauty of the world with pretty colors, music, dancing and the laugh, with the rainbows and the sunny days, with chirping birds and running kids... I would still not stop, but pass by until I enter the cold and dark night. The twilight would kiss softly my wounds.The moon will slowly climb the sky and rise above my naked body. I will drink the small droplets from the blades of the grass as the ground begins to cool, while still walking, before it turns to frost..
I make mistakes of seeing your characteristics in someone else, but I it's not really you, I have to keep going, where are you? Where is you? I fall a lot, sometimes into deep holes, sometimes into swamps, and sometimes into rivers, oceans or the lakes. But I taste all grounds and waters and I see it is not the same. I know I am moving closer... I sometimes see you clear, but closer as I get I see mirage... I can hear your words, so passionate, so sweet and tender, so true and loved, but closer as I get I fear is that really you or the mirage again...
As I walk trough the dark, I use my hands to feel around, I often get hurt more not knowing who is there or what it's gonna be...I fear, but I still go on... I scream out loud your name, can't you hear? No answer on the other end...
And the sun rise again. Kissing me gently, like taking away my worries and I move on. I keep on walking and screaming your name, so many heads turn back, yet I can't see your face....
I keep on moving, and my heart fills with more love and hope, and it gets heavy, you do not understand, it is heavy and hard to keep walking like that.
My eye lids heavy closing slowly, I am dragging my feet trough the dry cracked ground. I stop for a break, to just take a short breath, leaning my back against the gray empty wall... Front of me was just this green construction with small windows but no light, was it anyone living at all there?!
The sun disappeared again and I was hugged back the darkness. I couldn't see anymore, I lost my hearing... I felt so cold and alone in that moment...
I felt warm touch, someone was holding my hand. I open my eyes and it was you there!
"Who are you?" you said...
"I've been looking for you, you I always wanted, you I dreamed of, you by whom I've been always hunted... I am here now, just take me, end my walk of time and all this searching..."
"I am sorry but I do not understand you..."
"It is you, you and only... Can you hear me, can you even understand, I just know inside me, it is really, really you I've always wanted..."
"Please calm down, I am afraid I do not like it..."
"What is wrong with you, are you going mad? I am here, it is me as pure as I can be!"
"I do not care..." And he stands to walk away.
"No, wait! Can't you spare a minute to get to know me who I am? You saw me, but you never known me..."
"I still don't care do you understand! I wish I never stopped and asked you, I changed my mind, I have to go and lay... Take care."
"But I walked so long, so far, I am giving you my heart..." The tears showing in my eyes, my soul is shedding down my spine..."Just give me time, I'll show you and I will tell you about my long adventure..."
"What? Do you think I can spare time? I am busy with important stuff, maybe some other life..."
"Can you just for second, stop and look around. Do you know where are you, do you know with who? Do you know I care and I love you. I know that is not even matter now, but I just want to tell you that and then you can do whatever. Here just take it, I just can't even bare it..." I rip my heart and place it in his feet.
So what it hasn't be towards me so fare, I still said the words I thought of, I still try to show what I feel inside, and I strip naked front of him so he could see me as I was... The fact that I was there meeting him at last...Nothing else even matter, it was him I just wanted to take care... I have no idea what he would do with my beating heart now, would he kick it, would he take it, would he trow it or just spit at it...maybe love it, I so hope for it, but I don't know...
Well now he has it...
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